Hey! Its been a little while since i talked on here so i'm gonna do that now by saying its the 3rd anniversary of me publicly coming out as trans/genderfluid. I know it doesn't sound like a big deal to a lot of people, aside from being trans the only real qualifier for something like this is just existing for a while, but that's why this is so important to me. I vividly remember the day i came out, the 31st of january 2021, as being one of the most nerve wracking days of my entire life.

I was terrified of how people i knew saw me, how people i didn't know would treat me if they found out, how i was even going to live my life the way i wanted. It was a lot of stuff on 15 year old me's mind, even ignoring the numerous other mental problems i had at the time, and the fact that i'm here right now shows that i made it at least in one regard. I wasn't even expecting to make it a year after i came out, let alone 3!

I'm a ways away from who i intend to be and how i intend to live but comparing the me writing this to the original me that was terrified to bring up these feelings at all, fae would've been ecstatic to see me in the position i'm in now. fae would've thought it was rad that i made irl trans friends, that i finally settled on a name i loved (after close to 2 years of deliberation), that people in real life are starting to recognize me for who i am and not what other people said i was, just who i am now would've awestruck me back then.

The road to who i am has been tough and long, that the road that i'm on is only gonna get tougher and longer from here, but when i think back to who i was and and think forward to who i want to be, it makes it all worth it. Thanks for reading all this, stay safe <3